My Direction Today >>

at times i feel like i am literally leading a circus- that is seriously the best way to describe it! i am all over the place i am trying to make everyone happy with this show. i also feel like any other wife, mom, grand(daughter), employee is able to identify with what i am about to TRY and describe- but wait. its all the same we've all heard it, we've all expressed it - am i doing enough, how can i do it all, how does she do it etc... etc... etc! WELP i am actually going to talk about the circles that I am adjusting to TODAY. here- lets begin with this- exactly 11 months ago (just a one month shy of a year) my world FLIPPED a 180. i walked away from what i knew/felt to be my passion, my heart, mostly my everything. WORK. i was a branch of a 4th generation link within the legacy of my family's long lasting work ethic. i walked away from a self built, self guided way of life; i walked away from working from home i walked away from being able to be home for my k...

Hey Guys! (there was a time i was scolded for addressing a group of men & women as "Guys") it was in a group counseling setting- where i happened to be assisting in facilitating. "oh GREAT so another thing i am NOT good at or i AM actually good at but let's not give this young pretty girl any credit- right" -- well anyway- thats how i read that. in my time of grad school. in a program full of addicts and those recovering. and there i was little did anyone know where i was coming from or my story- i was NOT in recovery and i was NOT about to share my story. another day, another time- just not there. funny thing was, life at that time put me there for a reason- to later prepare me for a life of continued chaos. i felt, that as a kid teenager young adult an adult i lived chaos (silent chaos maybe even MILD chaos) but i was still able to thrive so ALL of it was OK. i was better than that. i learned a lot from that. i remained cautious (unable to trust, id eve...